Thursday, August 22, 2013

The gentle-hearted God

In Genesis 2, 3 & 4, it reads:

And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, “You may surely eat of every tree of the garden, but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die.”…

So when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was a delight to the eyes, and that the tree was to be desired to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate, and she also gave some to her husband who was with her, and he ate. Then the eyes of both were opened, and they knew that they were naked. And they sewed fig leaves together and made themselves loincloths...

And they heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and the man and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees of the garden. But the Lord God called to the man and said to him, “Where are you?” And he said, “I heard the sound of you in the garden, and I was afraid, because I was naked, and I hid myself.” He said, “Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten of the tree of which I commanded you not to eat?” ...

And the Lord God made for Adam and for his wife garments of skins and clothed them. Then the Lord God said, “Behold, the man has become like one of us in knowing good and evil. Now, lest he reach out his hand and take also of the tree of life and eat, and live forever—” therefore the Lord God sent him out from the garden of Eden to work the ground from which he was taken.  He drove out the man, and at the east of the garden of Eden he placed the cherubim and a flaming sword that turned every way to guard the way to the tree of life…

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And the Lord had regard for Abel and his offering, but for Cain and his offering he had no regard. So Cain was very angry, and his face fell. The Lord said to Cain, “Why are you angry, and why has your face fallen? If you do well, will you not be accepted? And if you do not do well, sin is crouching at the door. Its desire is for you, but you must rule over it.”...

Cain spoke to Abel his brother. And when they were in the field, Cain rose up against his brother Abel and killed him. Then the Lord said to Cain, “Where is Abel your brother?” He said, “I do not know; am I my brother's keeper?” And the Lord said, “What have you done? The voice of your brother's blood is crying to me from the ground. And now you are cursed from the ground, which has opened its mouth to receive your brother's blood from your hand. When you work the ground, it shall no longer yield to you its strength. You shall be a fugitive and a wanderer on the earth.” Cain said to the Lord, “My punishment is greater than I can bear. Behold, you have driven me today away from the ground, and from your face I shall be hidden. I shall be a fugitive and a wanderer on the earth, and whoever finds me will kill me.” Then the Lord said to him, “Not so! If anyone kills Cain, vengeance shall be taken on him sevenfold.” And the Lord put a mark on Cain, lest any who found him should attack him…

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The story of Genesis 3 is very familiar to most people, Christian and non. God tells man to not eat the fruit; man eats fruit; God curses man for eating the fruit. God looks like quite petty - come on, death sentence for eating an apple?! Humanity is doomed as a result of Eve's tastes.

Looking at the beginning chapters of Genesis in such a simplistic manner entirely misses the depth and complexity of these passages. There is much to be gleaned from poring over the first few books again and again. Seasoned Christians can run the risk of thinking that they've "read it all before" when they come back to these chapters, missing out on the rich treasures that can be found in studying this Word diligently.

Unfortunately I do not have time to delve into all the aspects presented by Genesis 3 and 4. But there is one particular topic that I wished to point out. When I read these passages again this time round, I was struck by the gentleness of God in these passages. That's right, you heard me right: gentleness. It is very easy to see God as the high and mighty Judge of the Universe in Him passing sentence on humanity; but it is also very easy to miss the parts that highlights Him as the aggrieved Father, filled with compassion and gentle-heartedness towards His children, whose sons and daughters have done a horrendous wrong according to Universal Law.

To understand the full extent of God's grace and mercy, one must understand the depth of the atrocity that Man had committed in that simple act of fruit eating. The introduction of Sin into the world wasn't simply about the ingestion of fruit; it was a primal act of Rebellion against the Lord of the Universe. It was a declaration that Man did not want God to rule over them, and that Man wanted to pursue his own destiny. It was to defame the goodness of God, to call Him an unfaithful liar that would hold back the best for us (when in fact He had already given us His best). To blaspheme the Eternal God was a crime of Universal proportions, and Justice would demand judgement of similar universal proportions.

So how does one see the grace of God in all of this?

Well, for one thing, God really went easy on them didn't He? Of all the command possible, all the rules and regulations that God could put in place, He simply gave them one command to follow: "but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat". ONE command, and it was a fairly simple thing to not eat from that particular tree since Man was given the rest of the world to eat from! Not only that, God even gave them a reason not to eat from it: "for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die." Even if God's Word alone is not enough impetus to keep the commandment, surely that extra warning would make Man hesitate!

Obviously that did not work out.

When you study God's reaction to Man's sin though, His grace really shines through. For one thing, He didn't obliterate them straight away. He had every right to do so; He had already warned them that in the day that they eat that fruit they would die. Instead, He holds off judgement and while they did "die" spiritually instantly in that their relationship with God was severed, He didn't let them just wipe them out, and allowed them to live so that Man could be saved by His Grand Plan.

When God confronted them about their sin, He didn't have to be so gentle about it. When He asked, "Where are you?...Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten of the tree of which I commanded you not to eat?"  Do you really think He really didn't know the answer to those questions? Of course not! He's God and He knows everything already. Yet, He didn't just blast them and say, "You EVIL sinners; DIE traitors!!" Instead, He gives them an opportunity to confess their sin, to admit their guilt, to repent. He asks His questions gently, tenderly, like a Father trying to help His children to understand where they had gone wrong.

Not only did God withhold (or postpone depending on how you look at it) His judgement against Man, He also continued to care for them and meet their needs. Even as he was sending Adam and Eve out of Eden, He was making garments of skin for them, so that they had better clothes than their pithy fig leaves. Some people may think that sending them away from Eden was a harsh sentence; but it is in fact a mercifully saving act! If they did indeed "take from the tree of life and eat, and live forever", then they would never die… which would mean they would live in Sin forever, not have the chance to die and be raised again, and not have the chance to have Jesus die for their sins in their place! It would mean an immediate sentencing to Hell with no room for recourse!

You can also see God's depth of compassion in the way He deals with Cain. He may have favoured Abel's sacrifice over Cain's (because Abel actually made an effort), but He loved them both. He gently, but firmly, warns Cain to be watchful in not allowing Sin to rule over him. Even though Cain is so unrepentant and hard-hearted in his dealings with God, God still dialogues and discusses with Cain, rather than just wipe Him out as He had a right to. Even as He was sending Cain out into the wilderness to wander as a fugitive, He promises Cain protection that he hardly deserves.


Contemplating this, I wonder: What do we think God is like? Do we see Him as the angry Judge, filled with righteous fury against evil criminals? Or do we see Him as the concerned and loving Father, who loves His children dearly no matter what they have done? 

Monday, August 12, 2013

The price you pay to love

 "But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him. " - Luke 15:20

Discipleship is dangerous.

Those who know me would know that I used to invest a lot of time and energy into discipling/mentoring younger Christians. It is one of the ministries that I passionately believe in, that I know makes a difference in people's lives.

Those who know me better, those who have looked more closely, would have also noticed that in the last year or so, I haven't been quite as keen in doing this any more. On the surface things may look like what they were in the past. But personally, I felt like I've been holding everyone out at arm's length. I haven't really engaged in someone else's growth for a long time; I haven't truly invested in another's life,   sacrificing something of mine in order to see them grow.

I hadn't actually seen it in that light. I thought I was just tired, weary, overworked, overstressed. But tonight I was able to attend a Gundy Young Adults' Bible Study group, and we just so happened to be talking about Discipleship this night. And it pushed my mind to ponder the state of my heart: Why was it that this topic which used to be so dear to my heart seemed so… difficult… to approach? What was it in me that made me so hesitant to dive back into this area? Why do my efforts in this area seem so half-hearted? Why do I fail to persist very far in this supposedly most-worthy work?

After a bit of reflection, I realised that the problem was fear. Fear that arose from pain.

You see, when you disciple someone you invest in them. You give off something of yourself to them, in order that they could grow. The more you invest, the more that can come out of it. And sometimes the harvest is beautifully abundant and everyone is happy.

But investment always involves risk. If there's no risk, then it could hardly be called a worthy investment. When you invest in someone, you have to expect a risk that the return isn't as great as you thought it would be. Or even that it would backfire on you and end up hurting you.

I was burnt. The investment I poured out into certain peoples' lives didn't turn out the way I thought it would go, that I wanted it to go.  And it grieved me. Yes, I know that ultimately it's not up to me or my power, that it's up to God's Spirit to move in that person. But it impossible for one to watch someone, who you love as deeply as if he was your very own son, move away from God and die a very slow spiritual death and not be grieved. It's like watching a family member being slowly eaten away by cancer - you see them dying, you see what's causing it, but you are powerless to stop it. Yes, there wasn't much I could do; but that did not mitigate in the least the depth of my grief for the situation.

And after such a painful situation, one wonders: is it really worth the cost? Can I really afford to let myself get burnt again? Can I really give until it hurts again?

Up until now, the question had been "unresolved". And, hence, the hesitation, the half-heartedness. I still think it's a worthy cause, but I just didn't know whether I was ready to pay the price any more.

Until tonight.

I don't know exactly why it changed. But tonight when I witnessed a friend weeping because of a different sort of loss in totally different circumstances, something twisted in my gut.

It is worth it. These tears that we weep for the ones we love are worth it; they are precious diamonds that cannot be bought with any amount of money. Even if we spend the rest of our lives marked and scarred by the loss of these ones that we love dearly, these people who we invest so deeply of our lives, it is worth it. Even if they never come back, even if things don't ever turn out for the better, they are worth it.

For me, it was a defining moment in helping me understand once again the Father's Heart. It is difficult to appreciate the depth of compassion that the Father of Luke 15:20 has for his prodigal son just by reading the words, but if you make an effort to put yourself in that situation, it's a bit easier. It paints a picture of a Father, who has been eagerly looking for the wayward son, even though he had no idea whether the son would come back or not. It shows the depth of compassion that the Father had for his son, regardless of how awfully the son had treated him, regardless of how little affection he received back from him.

This is my Heavenly Father's heart for me; this is my Heavenly Father's heart for the sons and daughters He places in my care; this is the way that my Father wants me to emulate His love for people. He wants me to love even when it hurts, not to love only until it hurts. He wants me to embrace them, even if doing so would cost me.

Why is it worth it? Well, I don't really know. I just know that this is what the Father wants, and I know that if that is what my Father wants, that is what He should get. I know that He wants what is good, and therefore I know that to love in this way is good.

And so, despite the aching deep in my bones, the weariness that comes from a grieving heart, I stand once again. It is time to shake off that weariness, to put my armour back on and join the fray once again. There is too much work to be done, and too little time to waste. There are too many people who need to be loved, and too little time in which to do it.


PS - to my prodigal son, on the off-chance you are reading this: I love you, and like your Heavenly Father we are both watching for you eagerly and greatly anticipating your return. I don't know what Our Father is planning, but I am hopeful and prayerful that some day you will see His Light once more. And when you return, there will be much feasting and celebrating :) But I cannot wait for you forever, and I need to get up and get working again; and all I can do is trust that God will take care of you and bring you back under His wings. Some day. Amen; may His Will be done.