[This was written in response to Em's post on May 3rd about God's faithfulness (or lack thereof). You can see the original on http://embluekirby.blogspot.com/2011/05/being-faithful.html]
Hey Em :)
Hey Em :)
Heh, thanks for a thoughtful post :P And I thought I'd come with a reply. I hope it helps you, rather than causes more problems.
Firstly, I would like to draw your attention to John 9:1-3:
As he [Jesus] went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”
“Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life.
And also to Luke 13:1-5:
Now there were some present at that time who told Jesus about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mixed with their sacrifices. Jesus answered, “Do you think that these Galileans were worse sinners than all the other Galileans because they suffered this way? I tell you, no! But unless you repent, you too will all perish. Or those eighteen who died when the tower in Siloam fell on them—do you think they were more guilty than all the others living in Jerusalem? I tell you, no! But unless you repent, you too will all perish.”
Em, you say that God did not give you an answer as to what you had done that was so sinful that He would smite you with a brain tumour. But the fact of the matter is that there is NOTHING that you have done that would have changed that fact. And that is why there was no answer. Whether you sin more or sin less would not have changed whether you had a brain tumour or not.
The problem is that you think that whether God loves you or not is dependant upon whether he blesses you with physical health or not. If He gives you health, you think that means He loves you; If He gives you ill-health, you think that means that He hates you.
And that cannot be further from the truth.
God's love for us never changes. From Psalm 103 we read:
The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love… For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him; for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust… But from everlasting to everlasting the LORD’s love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children’s children— with those who keep his covenant and remember to obey his precepts.
And again from Jeremiah 31:3 :
“I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness. "
God loves us with a height, width, depth and breadth that we cannot imagine or comprehend. Yet, even those He loved most dearly, those He caused to return to Him in love, were not spared from suffering. Abraham and Sarah were barren until a very old age; Jacob endured 20 years of oppression under his evil uncle Laban; the Israelites were oppressed for 400 years under Egyption Rule; Job lost ALL his health, wealth and prosperity in the blink of an eye; David was persecuted by Saul for many, many years. The list goes on. And ultimately, God sent His very own beloved Son Jesus to die on the Cross for us, so that our sins may be forgiven. If God did not spare His only son that suffering, how can we expect Him to spare us from our smaller problems?
So why do we suffer? There are many, many reasons. But ultimately, they all come back to the same root: Because sin has entered the world. It's not that you have sinned in a particular way that causes God to frown on you in particular (Although you, like all of us, are a sinner as well). It is that once the corruption of sin has entered the world, the world just goes WRONG. Earthquakes, tsunamis, plagues, famine, and brain tumours start to happen. Sin corrupts God's perfect world, and brings forth suffering. No one is spared the effects of sin in this world. And so we all suffer.
The good news is, one day, God will tear down this corrupted world and bring us a new world where sin and suffering no longer exists. Those of us who accepts His gift of Jesus will live in a realm of Eternal Joy and Peace. And our former life of suffering will soon be forgotten.
Em, what is a lifetime of suffering compared to an ETERNITY of joy? Even if we suffer terribly for EVERY second of a hundred-year lifespan, by the time we get to year 100,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000, we will think "huh? What was that time back then? It really isn't that much isn't it?"
Em, you say you have trouble hearing from God, but I have a message direct from Him to you: HE LOVES YOU. I know it is hard to understand and accept, but that is the Truth. You can read it for yourself in His love letter to you in the Bible. Yes, life is incredibly tough for you, and I cannot hope to truly understand the suffering that you are going through. But He does. And rest assured that it does not please Him that you are going through such pain and suffering. But even through such pain and suffering, He can bring about His glory and your joy if you let Him. Give Him a chance, let Jesus into your heart, and see what He can do to comfort you.
If you think that your suffering is hard, I would encourage you to look to the Witness of other great Christian Sufferers before you. Just read about the lives of any of the Christian Martyrs. But in particular, read about the more modern story of Joni Eareckson Tada. She is a wonderful Christian woman, who despite losing the use of ALL her limbs because she became a quadriplegic after a horseriding accident, ended up loving God sooo much instead of hating Him, because she saw that He still loved her despite all that suffering.
Anyway, I've written a long enough reply to your post :P hahaha.
But "I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
Your loving brother in Christ
Vincent